i promise myself that
i will never give up on you
i will never let you quit and say
die
i will never let you bear your pain
alone
i will always be there
always listen
always care
always love
always bear your burdens
for you as
best i can
but then i try
and it doesn’t work
because nothing i can
do will
ease the pain forever
and nothing i can do will
erase your mistakes and
heartaches
and when i realize this
i am crushed beneath the
weight of my own
inadequacy and
powerlessness
what am i supposed to
do if i can’t
do it all?
i fall to my
knees
despairing and
angry
helpless
i tell myself i’ll
hold on to my right to
heal you and
help you if i never
do anything else
and i clench my fists
tightly
but He takes my hands
pries them open
finger by
finger
He lifts my face
wipes the tears and tells me
it’s not my burden to
bear alone
He bore yours and
mine
and a billion others and
was alone
He holds my hands
looks into my eyes
saying
let go, child
let go
and i look back at Him
and i don’t want to
let go
because it’s hard
it hurts
i like to be
in control
but He says
let go …
how do i?
