i’ll break my heart in a million pieces and mail them to you to see that it’s possible for me to shatter does it matter now i don’t know how you felt but i remember all the thoughts i had and they frightened me concrete manifestations are different from the voices in the ether have you heard the planets sing have you heard the stars shining there is logic and there is emotion i cannot abandon reason for imagination lying is unacceptable on every level so this is honesty, this is truth but i can’t say everything because words will wound no matter how gentle my intentions keep dreaming i’ll be there playing croquet with pink flamingos keep searching i’ll be up in the tree grinning ’til i split maybe one day you’ll find me to be other than i am but some things i’ll never —