confession

wait — stay!

please

    i know you hurt

  but

     just listen for a

moment

       i don’t have

          many words

fewer reasons

             no excuse

        for how i

           broke their hearts

how i shattered

             yours

      i was selfish

foolish, unthinking

        a king unto

            myself

proud, haughty, base

      i was wrong

   you shook the scales

off my eyes

          and let light

    into my dark

         mouldy heart

   so i could see

         clearly

               for the first

time

             what was done

                   is

but doesn’t have

      to be forever

asking forgiveness

                               feels weak

   but here i am

            past arrogance

or doubt

           and finally alive

will you forgive

                  me

      my sins

            every unconscious dagger

plunged into your heart

          each wound i planned

                     deliberately —

   please?

             wait, don’t go —

                     wait!

  i didn’t get to

              tell you

although you’d disbelieve

                            and hate me

              deeper still

                         if i said

the whole truth

                              that

i

                                     love …