i remember the drives home
when i didn’t know what to do with my heart
when my mind felt like it was breaking
and all i could do was pray in a shaky voice
as my knuckles turned white on the wheel
and taillights glowed red before me
i remember when palpitations
and panic attacks were ordinary
when my hands would shake uncontrollably
from a cause neither cold nor caffeine
i remember that road, that girl all too clearly
and though some goodness was lost on the way
it’s been a long time since i’ve been her
and some things i’ll never miss
