i remember

as much as i

want to

remember you

always

right now i

want to

forget you

as much as i love

my imagination

i would rather it and i

be divorced

for a time

for the simple fact

is that

there are no

simple facts

when it

comes to you

or

at least

i don’t

know what they

are

in regards to 

me

i remember childhood well

and something of the

awkward years between

then and the

recent past

and then

five years

i remember

too well for comfort

i remember intimations

and then suspicions

tears?

yes, i shed them

not knowing

up from down

feelings?

i grew them

quite steadily

knowing they were

a problem

all along

so what is

left to

remember?

how to

separate myself

from the you

that isn’t really

you

but only me

how do i do that?

i wish i

could

remember