modes | moods | memories | music

i love making musical associations. when i hear robert schumann’s “von fremden laendern und menschen” i am twelve years old again, shy and wide-eyed on my first trip to germany. when i hear anberlin’s “symphony of blase” i am lying on my back on the top bunk in an air-conditioned room at the st. pancras…

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“something ridiculous”

when i was eight, i had a horrible headache that felt like the insides of my head were being torn out. or at least that’s what i remember it like now. the doctor said the problem was caused by something that’d been there since i was born. or, rather, hadn’t been there — and that was…

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in which i look for people no longer there

i don’t like it when people walk away.  my shining, fascinating people — but i guess it’s just jealousy makes me want to keep them.  they have lives of their own, or so i am told, in which they know and love and are loved by people i have never imagined. but still.  they go. …

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when avril was cool

today i was sitting on the floor of the gym i go to, panting from exertion, when a song i didn’t recognize started playing on my ipod.  what is this? i thought to myself.  is this an avril lavigne song i don’t remember?  turns out that it was actually michelle branch, whosealbum i picked up at half price books…

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